I’ve done it this way for a reason.
My old “Resolutions” blog was attracting too many visitors that I didn’t think I’d get. It’s not that I don’t like visitors, don’t get me wrong. It’s just that I didn’t expect to have anyone I knew reading my lifestyle blog. Can be a wee bit embarrassing when your boss stumbles across your heartfelt entries about losing weight or feeling worthless and the like. And that brings me to now.
This is not my main blog. I am not linking to it for the time being, not that I expect any visitors anytime soon. This is a personal, pseudo-private one that I am keeping to hold myself accountable for the events that happen to me this year. Number one on the priority list is taking control of my weight; it’s yet to happen and it’s already mid-March.
I’ll spare you the detailed background. Let me just say that I am at least 20kilograms overweight, I don’t look after myself anywhere near well enough, and I feel that I’m not getting out there and living the way I should/could be. The goal is to start thinking about me a little bit more. Fingers crossed I can do that here, as my last journal failed to make much of an impact. Sadly, I am too easily swayed by temptation.
Some of my excuses;
I try and take the easy way out, too often.
I have trouble seeing small results as positive ones.
I am bloody impatient. You would not believe it.
I believed I could only lose weight if I had somebody doing it with me.
I don’t want to rely on excuses anymore. I don’t want to have to explain myself to anybody as to why I’m trying. I don’t want to let myself get suckered in by one bad day, I want to stick it out. I said it last time, and here I am; most likely heavier (and a wee bit unhappier) than when I started.
I also don’t want to be miserable at the end of this year. I’ll never be complete – but I like to think that I can make a difference. Damned if I won’t make it work this time. Being anonymous feels better already.
